First off I repent. I repent of disobedience. I repent of just wanting things to be my way. In the song lyrics of Natalie Grant (paraphrasing)
How dare I want my will towards the “King of The World”.
I’m not sure what God wants of me now. However I do know He loves me, I am still His child, nothing can pluck me out of His hand, and He is restoring me.
Pray for me. That I will always give Jesus everything and hold nothing back from the King of the World!
I Samuel 12:20-25
That Life 